because the shock of close combat in vietnam brought these young men of the rest of -- robbed these young men of the rest of their lives. and those of us in leadership positions understand the enormous responsibility we have, whenever one of our young men or women dice under our command, sitting down at night as i did in a bunker, writing a note to their parents is probably one of the most riching experiences a citizen can ever experience. >> jamie: those please forgive me, those who know me know that arlington is in virginia. that's the price of leadership, to have that experience when guto the wall, to know and think about, did i did everything ik could to save those that reported to me? >> >> a young kid, 24, 25 years old. not far out of west scpoint ranger school. and i think back to this -- thoday, what could i have done differently? how could i have better protected my perimeter to keep those soldiers alive isn't burden of command, whether it's a plew play toon or a command ear. >> jamie: general. >> i'm sorry. >> jamie: forgive me, speaking of command, the secretary of veterans aff